A Theatrical "Offseason"

Most of my close friends know I love performing. I mean, that was my major in college, so I guess you could say it's something I'm passionate about!! I’m used to being in a few shows a year, but I found myself desperately needing a break back in the Spring. I believe this is the first summer I haven’t been in a show in 3 years, and it’s actually been very nice.

I got to a place where I wasn’t having as much fun. That’s the whole point, right? Well, one of them. My head and heart were not “in it." I know many theatre people might have the same feelings from time to time. Financially, emotionally, mentally, personally - life was throwing crazy curves my way! My circumstances were not ideal, but I wanted to also re-examine my intentions.

Was I doing this for the approval? The attention? Isn’t that one of the reasons people perform - they enjoy being someone else and escaping their own life? Insecurity? Partially, yes. But there were things about me that I wasn't okay with, and before I pretend to play another character, I needed to look at my own. I also do theatre because I love it & have a passion for it, but I had forgotten why.

In the spring, when my anxiety and depression were high, I really wanted time for myself, to figure this out. I have always said this and will continue to say it: I've always had to work very hard on my voice. Some people are born naturally gifted, and it comes to them so effortlessly. But, it’s been a harsh realization for me.

I don’t have all the answers, but I do know this - I needed the break (& still do). When the right show comes along, and if I happen to be cast, I will be in it wholeheartedly! It’s good to take a step back and remember WHY you do things. My thoughts were so clouded at the time - I didn’t have the joy. Some tough lessons were learned, but I’m so very thankful!

I LOVE being on stage, but sometimes, you have to take care of you and focus on that - & it’s OK!! Of course, on social media, everything comes across as “perfect," but it’s far from that, my friends.

I have found that when I don’t really take downtime, I get overwhelmed, stressed and don’t think as clearly.

These are 5 things I am focusing my energy on this summer!

1. Quiet time / prayer

2. Learning new music

3. Reading

4. Working - every little bit helps

5. Quality time with those I love

I hope you are taking care you! Take time to rest and celebrate how far you have come. Every little step counts! I have needed this reminder and hope it will encourage you!

Y'all have a great weekend and STAY HYDRATED!

Xoxo,